Me and My Little Pea

Little Pea is having a difficult time going to her daddy's. Even for one night. At school yesterday she cried to her teacher about how much she missed me. Then at ballet in the afternoon...her instructor came up to me afterwards and said that Pea began to cry in class about missing me.

We got home last night and she would not leave my side. Made something to eat. Little Pea was hugging my leg. Went into my bedroom to change out of my work clothes...Little Pea asked if she could wear a tee-shirt of mine. Headed to the bathroom...she opened the door and told me all about her day.

At one point...I had to ask her to stop following me. But then felt immediately bad as she curled into a little ball on the floor and said ever so softly "But I missed you sooooo much". Did you know that the floor is really a great place for a snuggle?

I am sure part of her anxiety is my upcoming trip to San Fran. 5 days away from them...will be the longest I have ever been apart from them since I birthed them. FIVE. Five days. Bubber will be ok. He will miss me. But he has now entered that part of time....where he can handle the missing. I think. Either that or he has already started the "I am a guy toughing it out thing"...which I hate.

But anyhooooo...I am hurting just knowing how much she is going to be missing me. And how do I explain to her that I am not only doing this grad school thing for me...but for them? So I can find a career where I can call my own shots...my hours...my pay and have more time for them? She doesn't get it. Yet.

All I can hope is that one day...she will realize these small scenarios of missing me...were leading to bigger pockets of time to not miss me....

Comments

[Silly]

Just found your site through another Oregon momma.....I agree that the floor is a great place for a snuggle. So is the bathtub. It is really funny if you climb in there with them with your clothes on. Just do it once though. Otherwise you look like a crazy person.

I hope you sweet babe is able to make it through this trying time.

xoxo

silly