Dancing in the Speed of Light

The Man and I took the kiddo's down to the waterfront today. To a place that has this really cool modern building...meaning built "eco-friendly" and all that...that has a waterfall and pond that for some reason...is calming to me but brings out the raging lunatics in my children. In a good way.

I watched as Pea danced around the edges of the pool...hands in the air "wavin' like she just don't care"...and I was mesmerized by her pure beauty. She captures me like that. One moment she is stomping her foot...telling me that "I will do whatever I want...when I want" (which brings my parents moments of Zen like pleasure that are WRONG) and the next she is smiling and so blissfully free...dancing in the shafts of sunlight...wind blowing in her little bobbed hair (which by the way...I WANT her hair. This is where the mommy-jealousy thing kicks in...doesn't it????) and I.WANT.TO.BE.IN.HER.HEAD.

I want to dance on the edge of that pool like her. No worries but: What's mom going to make for dinner...and when will I see my best g-friend Gracie again...and why is the sky blue?

Instead of: Jesus...what the hell do I make for dinner tonight? Why am I not so social anymore? Why can't I be living under the blue skies of New Mexico?????

But then...I just watched her. Just let myself breathe in the moment and it was just sooooo joyous. So heart-rendering-be-in-the-moment joy that I thought "It just can't get any better then this. Nothing else really matters...but this. Right here. Right now."

And then? Then Bubber ran up to me...hugged me randomly (IN PUBLIC WHERE OTHER BOYS MIGHT SEE HIM) and then ran off to laugh and chase his little sister.

I cried.

Right there. Cried. Through the sun and the laughter and the love just pulsating through my body for Bubber and Pea.

The Man pulled me close and didn't say or ask one thing...cuz he just knew.

Today was a good day...

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[Corgimom]

Here after some time away, and via Moobs.
Your post made me cry, dang it!
Come visit us here under the blue skies of NM any old time--but you must bring the kids.
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